It was last year

since I updated my blog. muahahaha

Hai, Assalamualaikum.

Today is like the other weekends (since I am in my sem break which everyday is a weekend. ahah)

Same old semester break. 

Since mommy is not home,

  Woke up early just to defrost the fish/chicken or whatever iced things that can cook later on afternoon,

  Lazying on bed with my laptop on, my tablet on, scrolling and trolling. lelulz

  When it comes to noon, it's my time to wake up my other two sisters -____-' (bangun suruh masak nasik       since I will doing all the cooks, and clean the dishes as well)

  Then here I went to cook as requested by the Chief Chef (no other than Mama) or anything that comes to     mind from scrolling on the Net and movies. Ahahaha Like this noon, Ma asked me to cook Gulai                   Tempoyak)

  Depends if I still ingat the recipe she taught me. Or other than that, I will make full use of Google. Ehehe

  Then I will have my brunch and get my grandmother to has her lunch. (yes, we live with my dad's mom who   suffered from alzhemier for years)

  I will golek-golek on bed with my gadget before I had my shower.

REPEAT THE NEXT DAY (unless if I have other errands to do)

Such a boring semester break, kan? Hahahahah

I really wish money will fall from heaven and I can get back my non-stop shopping routine. Online or physically.

 "You wished, Raa. You wished."

My semester four ended not so beautifully as this semester was fucking freaking stressed me out.  

The final papers were ____________________.

and most of us were like "God, how to answer this?!" "Did we have this in our textbook?" etc etc

The class was like the usual all girls class. Full of gossips here and there and cat-fights some more. lelulz.

And what I learned from this past semester, there are some who just take you for granted.  All they need is good marks for their assignments. Other than that, buat tak kenal je. If let say kawan susah pun susah sangat nak tolong.  That was what my lesson learned throughout this semester.  And there some who are unexpectedly nice to others and at last you can actually create a sister-bonding relationship like that. 

LIFE IS FULL OF UNEXPECTED THINGS. 

Hell, yeah.

Truthfully, I cannot wait to end this journey of my bachelor.  

"A year to go, Raa. You can do it!"

Sometimes I reflect myself.

Is that me who going overboard in creating relationship? 

or is that me who sometimes go too blunt in sharing thoughts and ideas?

But in the end, I always end up like

 "Not all people can accept who we are. If they cant, there are out there who still can."

But still there are times where I will slow down myself, open mind to others,

 to actually listen what they have to say. and etc etc

 

Being in late-teen isnt easy huh? lol

Okay, I think I should go back to the usual self. More scrolling on instagram. Ahah

Bye!

To whom might concern: I dont care if you dont want even care to contact me. Go put your Note 1 in preheat oven. End.

Mini Cooper dan 5A

Okay, I am supposedly doing my work. right now.

Tapi I was going through my facebook and read the Fynn Jamal's status pasal UPSR 5A dapat mini cooper tu. When I searched through google, pergghh. Bapak macam dah tau anak dapat 5A terus boleh hantar mini cooper pergi sekolah as present. 

Perghh.

Perghh.

Okay cukup. I personally, think dah macam common la kot. It's the time when parents taknak anak rasa susah macam yang dia pernah rasa. I personally experienced that. 

I have people who will bising when I said that I wanna buy new handphone, I wanna own a car and sort of . They said 

"Alaa apa salahnya susah sikit. Kitorang dulu jalan kaki naik bas turun bas pergi kelas (as they referred me during their age) okay je. Berjaya jugak. Jadi orang jugak."

The reality is, they are the one who will buy anything (almost anything) for their children. Zaman dah berubah. Kadang apa yang kita rasa expensive masa kita kecik dulu, dah dipandang biasa zaman sekarang ni. Macam if you owned a handphone. Dulu kalau ada handphone time sekolah, kau lah paling power. But now, it is relatively a necessity. Susah kalau takde. Susah nak tau anak kat mana.

Kadang, kita rasa anak yang di-spoiled macam-macam ni, liat sikit nak belajar/or strive in their life.

Yes, a big YES.

But at this mini cooper story, kira okay la tu dia dapat 5A baru dapat mini cooper.

Ni yang jenis bukak buku pun malas tetiba dapat ipad sekelepuk ni ape cerita ni?

It is just rezeki bapak dia terlebih time tu, dia belikan la. Kalau kita duit banyak berkepok taktau nak buat apa, mesti akan beli something jugak kan? tak kira murah ke mahal ke?

I came across few comments that are harsh. But dude, you are just JEALOUS. I have experienced it myself.

Anak orang lain best-best je dapat hadiah macam-macam kalau score. RM500 sekali invest dalam ASB lah, dapat latest handphone lah, tapi kalau family aku nak celebrate sikit pun aku dah cukup bersyukur dah.

LIKE SERIOUSLY.

Even a simple congratulation will do. Sebab tak semua kita mampu (at least for the time being).

Kata-kata tu doa kan. Jangan cakap "tak mampu, tak mampu." nanti betul-betul tak mampu.

Yakin pada diri one day AKU MAMPU jadi macam dia :')

Mama taught me that. Sebab dia kata, kalau orang perli kita ni "kaya",

aminkan je, satu hari kita akan kaya (:

Ameen.

And aku taktau lah pulak zaman aku jadi parent nanti macam mana. Anak dapat 5A kena belikan banglo pulak kot. HAHAHAHA kalau upsr ada lagilah time tu.

Kadang kita ni terlalu membenci. 

Benci kalau orang lebih sedikit/ banyak dari kita.

Stay positive. watlek watpeace.

Okay, mari kerja keras untuk dapatkan Ford Fiesta.

HAHAHAHAHA bye! Spread the love (: 

Hiatus.

Dah lama aku tak menulis balik, macam dulu-dulu. Bukan aku tak rindu, bukan aku takde apa nak luah, cuma takde masa. Ye, akhir zaman, semua benda tak sempat.

Tak sempat untuk diri sendiri

Tak sempat layan blogwalking

Tak sempat renung hidup sendiri

Tak sempat wish birthday keluarga sendiri

SEMUA TAK SEMPAT.

Ahh, alasan. 

Well, life has been good and bad for me. For this past months. And sekarang aku dah semester empat pun, which sangat mencabar (sangat2). Ada lagi dua semester setengah, dan InsyaAllah, ke dunia baru lah aku. And aku ada banyak hobi baru. hahahaha 

current obsession of Fynn Jamal dan sewaktu dengannya

current obesession of puisi moden seseksi Seksi Ovari

current obsession untuk menjadi girlish tapi tak berapa girlish

current obsession pada Instagram dan online shopping

banyak current obsession aku. Takut tak ter-listed here. Hahahaha.

Itu hanya rencah. Cara aku lari dari dunia formal, gelumang buku dan laptop, dan jurnal-jurnal serious. 

I am an observant, but not that good with words. sebab tu aku suka baca manusia yang suka menulis. Mereka tolong luahkan apa yang aku rasa. and yes, being me, aku setuju dengan apa yang aku rasa betul. yang telah ditimbang tara, betul atau tidak. Bukan aku ego taknak terima apa orang kata, tapi prinsip aku, tak apa yang aku nampak, mereka nampak. and the other way around. Cuba, sekali sekala, kita ikut kerasnya kita. Aku kata cuba.

Dan semenjak tiga menjak ni, banyak aku deal dengan Ego dan Manusia.

Ego sebab dia rasa dia superior dalam sesuatu bidang

Ego sebab title dia jauh lebih tinggi dari kita

Ego sebab dia rasa dia semua betul while kita semua salah.

kadang aku penat, sebab bagi aku kita semua ber-ego. Cuma cara kita handle tu macam mana. Kadang aku iyakan. Sebab aku penat. Biarlah kita go with the flow, biarlah terhantuk, walau sekali. 

- "Because we usually learned from experience."

Love-life? 

Macam itu lah. Tiada pergerakan title dari miss kepada bakal miss.

Masih muda. Leklu, sapkoklu. Hahahaha

Tapi kadang terfikir juga, umur berapa akan bertukar? dan dengan siapa?

Aku bulat-bulat serah pada Dia. 

Bukan aku tak berusaha, aku tengah berusaha. Tapi biarlah,

He knows what the best for every each of his slaves.

Sekali lagi, go with the flow.

Tapi selalu aku titip doa, di-destiny-kan kepada si dia yang benar-benar berhak.

Yang bukan saja milik aku, malah milik keluarga aku,

Yang boleh terima baik burukknya perempuan biasa-biasa ini

dan boleh penting, yang boleh lower down the degree of temper and rebellious ini.

Aku tetap tunggu kau, my future.

Study? Macam yang aku katakan.

Aku tengah berusaha keras (err padahal aku tengah takde mood nak sambung assignments ni haha)

Usaha untuk bagi mama ayah gembira. 

Usaha untuk mereka bangga dengan aku, even sedikit.

Aku usaha untuk mereka, untuk aku. Bukan untuk siapa2.

Moga Tuhan permudahkan.

Aku sebenarnya dah taktau flow post aku ni macam mana. HAHAHAHA

it just random. random updates.

Manetau bila bosan boleh tengok balik. hahahaha

dan untuk my future yang nak stalk how im doin with my life at this age zzzz

Dah, dah, merepek.

Moga semua baik-baik sahaja.

Assalamualaikum.

Puncak Alam dan kisahnya.

Okay, I dont want to complaiinnn about the UiTM Puncak Alam yang banyak tangga tuu. as no people willing to hear pun. as management/people pun cakap,

 "Student pun tak complain"

 or

 "Takpe, turun/naik tangga banyak2 kumpul pahala jalan nak menuntut ilmu"

I've had enough. -.-

Basically live in puncak alam is not bad. Environment is the best. Facilities pun. We have gyms, cafes, and banyak laa lagi. tapi in term of susunan dia, macam pelik sikit, and why on earth admin building, hall and pusat islam tak disiapkan dulu dalam Fasa 1? ni Bendahari kat situ, HEP kat sinun. macam a mess for students yang takde kenderaan (macam aku,ehem). and yg paling pelik tuu, Pusat Islam laa. sepatutnya siapkan yang tu dulu. and yeah now, baru siap. after yearsss of UiTM PALAM ni bukak -.-

Okay, konon taknak complain lelebih :p (it's just my humble opinion, dont take it too seriously if you cant)

Degree life is tough. VERY. lagi-lagi puncak alam is one of the main campus for business, and for my course. Tuu yang semua lecturer pakat strict kemainnn tuu. Test dah rasa macam final exam i tell youuu -..-

Stress toksah cakap laa. sangat lah lahai. dengan nak keluar buat assignment pun jauh berbatu. 

I wont promise on Dean List (again.hmm) but with Allah will, I will get the first class degree. Ameen.

Yang best? pak guard sempoi-sikit I tell youu. muahaha. Dalam sebulan lebih kat sana, baru sekali je aku pakai matriks card. If seri iskandar? Keluar bilik tak pakai je dah cuak nak mampus. AHAHAHAHA

Makan pun okay laa. ada yang best, ada yang biasa2. portion besaq kemain. sebab tuu turun naik tangga pun badan aku naik.wakaka (naik tangga lah sangat, Rapid tu jugak kukejar setiap kali balik kelas :p)

Classmates pun okay je. and dah masuk tahun ke-8 aku kelas dengan SEMUA perempuan. wiuwiuwiu.

Takde laa wierd sangat. biase-biase je. Aktiviti gosip seperti selalu. wahahaha

Housemates pun okay, sebab semuaa ex-classmates dari Seri Iskandar. Dah ngam la dengan kepala masing-masing. And rumah kitorang paling meriah (kot?) sebab semua kenal. Makan pun sama-sama kat living room. Yeah, dekat sini kolej in apartment concept. So takde la rase hostel sangat. and aku jadi Penolong Ketua Blok. hehe. Saje nak tambah pengalaman. Tambah kawan. Cewahh. (padahal disamping tuu nak dapatkan kolej lagi next sem :p)

Now, as in hidup kat bandar(lah jugak), selalu je rasa jeles,

Jeles orang lain pakai branded

Jeles orang lain selalu balik

Jeles orang lain cantik dari kita

Jeles orang lain selalu jalan sini sana

Jeles orang lain makan taraf hotel

Jeles orang lain ada pakwe (eh?)

Tapi satu je yang aku dah start praktik, ingat quote ni;

"Kalau kita cemburu dengan apa yang orang lain ada, kita tak cukup bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada."

InsyaAllah, nanti akan healing sikit feeling jealous tuu.

Okay, cukup lah kot aku membebel dari tadi.wiuwiu.

Nah amik souvenir dari puncak alam; 

||PuncakAlam||8:00pagi||DariTingakat12||Diambil dari Instagram gue ; azieghaa||

Till then. Assalamualaikum :* XOXO

Resah.

Tuhan,

Dengarlah isi hatiku,

Makbulkanlah, Tuhan,

Apa sahaja,

Yang terbaik untukku.

Finally.

Alhamdulillah ya Allah for everything. Some might know aku dah dapat offer ni since 31st January haritu, saja nak brag lebih :p

Perasaan?

Bersyukur sangat-sangat sebab dapat offer yang macam tu. Lagi-lagi dapat course yang sama dari diploma, course yang betul-betul minat, and dapat pengecualian kredit so maybe terus lompat part 3 ;) Compare dengan kawan-kawan yang tak dapat, even with good cgpa. Because of masa batch kami ni gabung dengan batch OM114 yang part 6 last semester (diorang ada praktikal) kami takde, so that mesti lah peluang tu risiko nye tinggi kan since yang apply bertambah gabungan dua batch. tapi, untuk kawan-kawan yang tak dapat, please please buat rayuan okay. jangan patah semangat. Kalau kita betul-betul usaha, betul-betul nak, mesti ada rezeki kat situ. Yang dah dapat, janganlah sampai lupa diri okay. Perjalanan kita masih jauh.

For the kampus, taktau la nak happy ke tak. Happy sebab ramai kengkawan kelas and batch yang sama masa dekat UiTM Seri Iskandar dulu dapat situ jugak, even dapat sama course. Gang-gang selalu pegi kelas sama, gosip sama Oly, Kembar and Yana pun dapat UiTM Puncak Alam. Kalau kitorang dapat kelas sama lagi memang epic la woi. Kahkahkah.

Risau sebab Palam is one of the main campus. Dulu main for OM, but now since OM dah bergabung dengan Faculty Business Mgt, taktau la macam mana kan. And mostly main campus ni kena stand on your own lah in terms of assignment apa semua. Tak macam some of branches and masa diploma dulu. And kalau dapat senior lecturer yang pangkat Dr ke memang parah sikit. Tak cakap semua macam tu, but most of friends said so. Hahah. Tapi InsyaAllah, kalau kita betul-betul usaha, skor elok-elok, buat baik dengan orang, automatik orang akan baik dengan kita and kelebihannya pada masa depan nanti. InsyaAllah.

Risau lagi sebab even palam ni kat ceruk hutan, tapi still tak berapa jauh dengan Shah Alam, Takut culture shock je. Pernah rasa dulu masa kat SSP. Culture shocked maybe ada yang baik. tapi mostly yang buruk lah kan. Taraf hidup pun sure much mahal dari stay dekat Seri Iskandar dulu. Huu, so kena saving jugak lah kan. Taknak terikut-ikut orang sangat. Beli apa yang patut, sesuai dengan kemampuan. Gitteww. Harap-harap aku boleh dapat kolej, so that takde laa monthly expenses tuu terlebih-lebih.

Rasa seronok sebab dekat dengan Shah Alam and KL so that boleh jumpa kawan-kawan, especially ex-schoolmates ssp yang bersepah serata KL and S.A tuu. Hahaha. Lama tak jumpa korang woi. Seronok jugak sebab area sana banyak benda yang aku nak explore :p well, jauh perjalanan luas pemandangan. Kahkahkah 

Tak berapa nak seronok sangat cause I will tak kerap balik sama macam kat ssp dulu. sobs. Luckily semester pendek-pendek je. Tapi nanti dah tak boleh balik once a month T.T zaman diploma kat SI bolehla call-call mama suruh amik sebab nak balik. HAHAHAHA. Sekarang, again, after a long time after 2009, kena balik naik bas or train lah jawab eaa. 

Demikianlah feeling's summary  tentang offer ni. haha.

SS is so envious about the result :p hahaha, lek ahh bro. Puncak Alam je. Belum fly lagi :p hahaha. And he keep saying that, hati-hati kat sana. And kawan masa diploma tak semestinya jadi kawan sampai bila-bila. Macam tu lah pesanan-pesanan SS. SS yang cakap. Bukan aku. hahaha. For me, nak tak nak, feel brave to face it lah. Ada kawan, ada. Takde kawan kita cari. Tu je. As long as you keep in heart Allah with you, tak usah takut lah kan.

This February is very-very hectic one. Some might say, woi semangat nye kau ziera awal-awal dah buat itu ini. Just nak cakap, I've lots lots thingsss to settle by this february. That's why kalau ada masa lapang je aku buat itu ini. Settlekan lesen, apply scholarship, apply PTPTN, search pasal course outline. I just wanna be well-prepared. Kawan-kawan masa zaman diploma mungkin rasa macam aku ni over semangat pulak, hahaha, tapi tak, aku memang macam ni. Masa nak masuk diploma dulu pun macam ni lah aku buat. Aku kena betul-betul well prepared before aku pergi ke alam baru. Physically and mentally prepared. Kita lain-lain kan. ada orang yang last minute, ada orang yang kalau boleh nak well organized (macam aku, hahaha). Since everything aku settle on my own, and a bit helps from parents and family, so that's why aku kena betul-betul prepare everything.

I just want everything go my way. Cewahh.

Okay,  dah panjang berjela aku membebel sekali update. haha.

Wish me all the best. Doa kalian sangat aku hargai :3

Till then.

That kind of girl

There's a girl,

that kind of who need lots of attention

that kind who love being loved

that kind who envy romantic couple

that kind who love someone expressing their emotion openly while she cant

that kind who love comfort words when she sick

that kind who love being cared when she is not in right state

that kind who cant expressed herself when she got pissed off

that kind who doesnt care to call her old fashioned because she takes relationship seriously

that kind who always want to win the arguement

that kind who are must have some kind of mood to do something

that kind who wants everything goes her way

that kind who care for people she love

that kind who love trough actions

that kind who never tired to be love

that kind who live independently but still want a saviour beside her

that kind who appreciate arts and creative thing

that kind who will listen to all your problems

that kind who will try her best to make you feel loved

that kind who mad of sweet texts

that kind who need a tough protective man

that kind who doesnt care if her partner is not perfect, but she knows he tried

that kind who want her man madly in love with her

that kind who want to be clingy with only her man

that kind who find love letter is precious

that kind who can be open to certain people

that kind who see the inside, and outside it's just a bonus

that kind who is super sensitive when it comes how he treats her

That kind of girl who not yet found her man.

One day, with Allah will.

Words-Usage Nazi

Bak kata Intan Liana nak jadi grammar nazi,
tapi aku more to words usage. hahah

tak kira lah hang nak speaking ka, nak cakap melayu ka, nak cakap rojak-rojak ka,
aku tak kisah words apa korang guna, asalkan bercakap. OKU lain cerita.


the diferrence between Okay,Ok, an K

Okay : Baik *cheerful comel-comel je muka dan hati*
OK   : Emm, suka hati hang laa nak buat apa
K    : I'm freaking pissed off babehh -.-


The difference between I Love You, sayang you, ILY

I Love you /love you : aku memang tangkap cintan kat hang
sayang you : More as in 'aku suka kat hang'
ILY: More as aku tak berniat pun nak sayang kat hang. saja suka nak buat sweet
^ sama applicationn dengan I miss you

kadang kan, kita cakap campur-campur, aku tak kisah la, since aku bukan kerja kat DBP, or cikgu cemerlang dalam Bahasa Melayu atau teacher speaking berabuk, TAK.
tapi kalau dah salah guna, rasa gegeli je telinga.
and noted that kadang aku paham lain dengan apa yang hang paham. haha

as in, fahaman aku.

aku tak suruh hang paham pun apa aku merepek. Just yes, nama pun Rara Lee random thought bukan?

lagi satu isu guna aku-kau dengan orang yang kita rapat.
bagi aku, biasa je, lagi cool gitteww. tunjukkan kita memang anggap dia sahabat.

tapi ada jugak yang tak boleh accept, as in aku-kau tu kasar bunyinya. Contoh terdekat, Mama sendiri la.haha. She's even cakap saya-awak tau dengan sibs dia and dulu kecik-kecik kitorang kena marah sebab aku cakap aku-kau dengan adik-adik aku. sampai kena ugut tak boleh balik kampung -.- as balik kampung mama dulu tu macam jenjalan jauh tau.yelaa, kecik-kecik dulu susah, mana ada mesin tayar empat macam laa ni.

tapi bila dah besar-besar, mama diamkan je. Maybe lah kot dia dah accept yang kitorang ni gegeli nak bahasakan diri saya-awak,
or along-angah, aku-kau cool apaa. tak dosa pun. wkwkwk
tapi tak untuk Adik. sebab beza dia jauh ngan aku, berapi jugak laa kalau dia panggil aku 'Kau'.
setakat Aku-Along tu, aku cool-cool je lagi. muahahaha

aku memang cerewet nak mampus bab-bab macam ni.
kita orang timur, ada adab kan? maybe sejak lahir mata,telinga aku ni suka dekat orang-orang beradab.bukan biadap.
sebab tu aku pantang sesangat orang biadap even tua bongkok pun,
Seriously I dont care.
As beradab tu cara kita pupuk orang hormat kat kita.
Senang kan prinsip tuu?

okaylah, aku nak sambung masak lomak cili api siput sedut or ada orang lain panggil siput belitung.
First time wehh siang siput tu, gegeli aku.
okay words of the day; Gegeli. wkwkwk

byebyemuahmuah :*